Provocative...

He looks her way yet again,

And feels a rage so strong

He knows he needs to be calm,

Or he'll end up doing something wrong

She watches him silently as she dances,

In the arms of yet another man

She feels a satisfaction and smiles,

As she thinks about her plan

As music fills the entire room,

He orders another drink on a whim

That's what he needs right now,

To numb the burning feeling inside him

As she steps out of the circle,

Of the strangers surrounding her

She heads for his table,

As his drink, he continues to stir

His eyes hold hers,

As she walks towards him

He finds her beauty breathtaking

And around him, the lights seem to dim

Her cold lips touch his,

And douse the fire that she had lighted

She alone knows that to quench his ardor

Fire and ice had to be united 

Taking perfect provocative strides,

She moves away from him again

In search for a new toy to amuse her,

For sometime, her attention who'd gain

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Okay, so I tried something different here...I don't know if you all can visualize it, but I could see a man sitting at the bar, jealousy raging inside him as he watches the girl he loves, toy around with strangers...Well , the reason I'm giving is that she's punishing him for something, like a fight or for lack of attention, or maybe, she's just a tease :D You're welcome to add your own reasons  :)) 

I totally got inspired by a friend's recent blog post which I loved -"Fire and Ice", which you'll find at- http://www.i-me-mysolitude.blogspot.in/2012/01/fire-and-ice-55fiction-1.html, and I interpreted it in my own way...Hope she forgives me if I messed it up ;)

Anyway, hope you all liked it...and for anyone who thought there'd be a revelation of the mysterious identities of the man and the woman in the end, all I can say is -tough luck! :p

Good night guys :)

Unrequited Love

From where he sits,

He sees all of what's around 

But the one his eyes search for,

Is no where to be found

Desperate for her company,

He roams here and there

He wonders whether its his fate,

And loneliness, he'd ever have to bear

Sad eyes will for her to appear,

A painful cry from the depth of his being

Penetrates the silent world and darkening sky,

Which with him, seem to be agreeing

I watch him from afar,

Yet I sense something is amiss

There is something about him, 

That speaks of pain, and makes me reminisce

There's hurt in his voice and yet,

As he waits, a hope inside him stays

And that, I know comes from one thing alone

An unrequited love, for someone to fill your days

And I see that lonely bird again, 

On the cold wall, as he sings a song

A song of heartache, of a love lost 

A song for the one, for whom he'll always long

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The idea for this post came to me today, as I sat in class in college and looked outside the door (as I was totally bored! :D) and saw a bird sitting all alone on a far-away wall, and moving here and there as if it was looking for someone...I'd seen it there before too once, and as I was already thinking about un-returned love because of my Dad's latest post ;), something just clicked :) 

So here it is...hope you all liked it...I'm so glad it finally broke(?) my writer's block, which has been irritating the hell out of me! :@ :/

Feels great to write...nice to know where I really belong and what I really want to do :)

Good night guys...hope I'll be back soon :p :)

Intimate Moments Spent With Her

                                              

He saw her after a lifetime,

She stood in a corner, calm and still

Thoughts of her, had kept him alive

Dreams of her, had given him a thrill

So many days, he'd spent without her

Her voice, he had craved to hear,

And when he conjured her up in his dreams

All his worries, would always disappear

He sat down in front of her now,

And wished to hear a melody so sweet

Something only he could understand,

Something that would make him complete

The desperation in his eyes,

The impatience that gnawed at him

Told him he could wait no longer

As a longing to touch her, coursed through each limb

His eyes closed, and his body relaxed

In front of him, his fingers splayed out

He touched none of her keys

But still, music he heard without a doubt

Because the music only he could hear,

Had become a part of his soul

From the day, he had first touched her

In this life, for him, there was only one role

He'd be the finest pianist there ever was,

His lover would be his piano

And as he got lost again in the music that he made,

It was still just an illusion, that he'd never know

I saw the movie, 'The Pianist' just yesterday and it was so moving, so beautiful that I just got lost in so many beautiful moments...There was one particular moment in the movie that inspired this post in which this man (Wladyslaw Szpilman) who has been a pianist for as long as he can remember, and has been thrown away from his home, separated from his family and has been treated like dirt and tortured like the rest of the Jews in Germany at that time, escapes, and is helped by some really good German people to go into hiding. He's hiding in this apartment which has a piano placed in the corner and the expression on his face as he watches it Oh God! Such joy, sadness, hope, desperation...and he sits in the stool in front of it and closes his eyes and stretches out his hands in front of him and plays...and you hear the most beautiful music ever...The thing is, he actually doesn't play at all, not even one key is touched...He can't even make the slightest bit of sound as all around him, the rooms are occupied by Germans and he can let no one know of his existence or else he'll be captured again...so he just moves his fingers in mid-air and still, he hears music... It was just so sad and so intimate and so very beautiful that I thought I'd write about it...I don't think I could justify that moment through this post but I just had to try...

And my mind's all muddled up and I was finding it really hard to write but again, I was craving to do it, so I shoved all my copies into my bag, left all the studying I was doing (which wasn't much :p) just like that and started to write....Hope you all liked it :) 

Please keep in mind that I had to write this post with the annoying voice of my roommate in the background the whole time!  :@ I really miss home :(

:D

Good Night guys :)     

Lost and Found

Shattered glass and broken wings,

Empty glasses and a dark sky

Things went missing or was it just me?

A placid face, trying to hide a lie

Forgotten dreams, hurtful memories

Feelings, once so familiar and real

Places visited and havens marked

I find that now, they hold no appeal

Time flew by and days went by

Seasons changed from winters to springs,

Nothing seemed different, yet everything had changed 

Just with the flutter of a butterfly's wings 

Nothing mattered but the thirst within me,

To search for all that had been lost

The sound of a laughter, the scent of a perfume

The need to find them again, whatever the cost

The more I searched, the farther I got

From the only place I knew to be mine

I ran, and I went to the ends of the earth

And found a corner, where myself I would confine

I found nothing, but only lost myself

I looked down at the calm water so blue,

As I walked on the sand by the sea

But it would hold no reflection of mine,

That I already knew

But then the water caught some light,

And glowed like a big drop of dew

As I searched once again, for a cause,  

This time, I turned to find you

A new feeling was born within me,

As I stood still, looking at you 

And a forgotten,old one was found again

When your face broke into a smile, so true

Realization dawned as I turned again,

With you standing right by my side,

The water answered the question it had refused before,

Now it had nothing to hide

Because what is lost will always be found,

No matter how impossible it may seem

A note in a diary, a giggle and a feel

The love of someone special or a childhood dream

I just had to look deep within myself,

To find a missing heartbeat

I knew then, if things never get lost

Their destinies, they never will meet

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The things happening in the past week and a book that I just finished reading- "A Place Called Here"- and totally loved and found the imagination behind it absolutely bizarre, influenced me a great deal into writing out this piece of 'poetry' for my post. 

I'll quote a few lines from the book just to give you the feel :

"We all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes by forces beyond our control. When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. Sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves; the fear, the anger or the sadness preventing us returning. Sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it's easier. Sometimes we find our way out. But regardless, always, we are found."     

Hope you all liked it...:)

Had the most amazing week at home...I think the best Christmas till date, the most perfect one :) Can't believe the dreamlike holidays are coming to an end- I'm in denial :( :D Hope you all had a great Christmas too...Season's greetings to all (I know it's a little late, but still :D) :)

Good night...till we meet again :)

The Woman He Would Always Love

He woke up in the middle of the night

And lay still, thinking about the dream he'd just had

It seemed, it was a dream more real than reality 

A perfection to which, nothing he'd ever add

Smiling then, he turned to his side

And looked at the face he'd seen, just a while ago

He watched as she slept like a baby, and remembered

Each memory that they'd made together, and felt the emotions flow

She had seemed no older than a child,

The day that into his life, she'd first flown

Big eyes full of trust, a smile like sunshine

Two braids swinging, with a life of their own

He hadn't spared a thought on her then,

Hadn't given her a second glance

Little had he known, that she was the one he'd waited for

That it was the beginning, of a lifelong romance

Soon they got to know each other,

And he was amazed that now he had a friend

With whom, he who could be himself and share his dreams

Someone with whom, he had no need to pretend

As the days went by, he realized how special she was,

And the dreamer inside him weaved up fantasies about her

He knew he had fallen for this beauty

As feelings unknown, within him she could stir

He wrote passionate letters, and poems and songs

As to woo her, hundreds of ways he designed

At times devious, at times the picture of chivalry

To have her, was the only thought that was always on his mind

His efforts hadn't gone unanswered,

His labor of love hadn't been in vain

As the cupid's arrow struck her too

His happiness knew no bounds and in that way,

forever he would remain

For her laughter brought wonder into his world, 

Her child-like happiness gave to his life, a reason

Her funny expressions, and madness at times

Brought into his life, the beauty of each season

She wouldn't let him give in when he stumbled

For she was the only one, who knew him inside out

She fought for him, and became a part of his soul

And dreamed of the things, that he dreamed about

She got lost somewhere in between, 

But he knew she was stubborn and strong

She'd find her way back to him, to her haven

She'd remember that his arms were where, she would always belong

As he looked at her now, in the darkness

With the soft moonlight casting a halo around her, as she slept in peace

He felt sure that the keeper of stars had joined their hearts,

And his love for her with each passing day, would only increase

For she was the woman, he would always love

She would always be his inspiration and pride

She would always catch him, if he were to fall

She would always be the one who would walk by his side

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No guesswork needed here, right? This poem is totally dedicated to my Mom :) and Dad's love for her...I've been wanting to write about her for sometime now...She's a mother and a child at the same time, always full of joy and as I told her a few days ago, when I think about her, it's always like thinking about sunshine...bright, warm, smiling, comforting, beauty, laughter, dancing around the shadows and always finding a way to get past them...just totally pure and angelic :):):)

 Hope you all liked it, especially you, for whom the poem is written...an inspiration not only to Dad (who sometimes denies it, but is totally lying. I know, well, because I always know;)) but to your silly little daughter too...Love you loads 'ma, just the way you are...very special :)

Good night guys, I'm feeling all 'Christmasy' and red-and-green! :D Love this season and what it does to me :)

Till next time then... 

A Dream and a Wish...

On the stones along the pathway,
To hear your footsteps, my ears I strain
And for a long time, that's where I stay
But all I hear, is the soft patter of rain

The wind's starting to get wild now,
And I'm drenched to the bone
The trees sway, and I feel that somehow
They speak a language, that I understand alone

They tell me to leave, and never to look back
Because a storm's coming, and you know what they say
It brings pain and destruction with each attack
Punishing each and everything in its way

Tears mix with rain drops, as I still stand there
I still wait, ignoring each warning sign
For no storm could sway, a trust so deep and rare
And suddenly from far away, I hear a clock chime nine

Time has come but where are you?
I can't take it anymore, my mind starts playing a game
Because each shadow and silhouette too
Reminds me of you, but the forlorn night remains the same

I lift my head to the sky, to see the stars wink
But all I see today, are the darkest of clouds floating by
Finally, my shoulders slump and I feel my heart sink
I cast one last glance over my shoulder, and let the hope that's inside me, die

Maybe I didn't wish hard enough for you tonight
But that is not possible, no one could make a wish so deep
Because with each breath, I wish for your sight
Even if it's for a fantasy I dream, while I sleep

There's a battle within me, that stops me from waking
Not until I see you, will it end
And in my dream, I suddenly feel my saddened heart sing
And the broken pieces start to mend

For I see you move towards me, as first rays of the sun appear
And a rainbow apologizes for the angry sky
But still, things remain confused in my mind and and thoughts unclear
Is it a dream that brings me to you or beside me, you really lie?

Because you are a dream at night and a wish in the morn
All day I long to see your face, even if it's from afar
And each day I know that the dream will be reborn
To be with you somewhere, beyond a distant star

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So, again I don't know what brought this on suddenly...there were some thoughts bouncing around in my mind and then I read some beautiful lyrics, "A dream in the night", and it sort of got me to do this instead of inspiring me to study for my Java practical tomorrow which I really, really should have done :p Oh anyway, please let me know if you liked it, poetry and me is a really new combo which I haven't explored much, so just giving it a shot :)
And tomorrow is the day when I finally finish with my awfully long (it really felt looong :D) 5th sem at college...Yay! *jumping, jumping*
Okay, good night everyone :)

And Then He Smiled...

All I wanted to do, was to run and never stop...

To leave it all behind and to give up, looked so easy and at that time so right...

Standing in the middle of a crowded room, I felt suffocated and looked for a door to the outside...

There it was, at the other end and I started making my way towards it

Pushing my way through the crowd, stopping for no one

But it seemed, the harder I tried to reach it, the farther I got, the more difficult it became 

My legs wouldn't move and I got stuck there, in the middle of a crowded room...

I let go of my pride and I asked for help...

But some just looked at me with blank faces...and some didn't even notice

Some whispered the solution to me and I strained my ears, but couldn't understand the soft words over the deafening sounds in the room...

Some screamed the answer to me, but all I could hear was a ringing in my ears 

I saw them all from where I stood, I read each face clearly

Some seemed frustrated and angry...but still determined to fight on and I wondered how they did it?

Some seemed so immersed in themselves, they would've put Narcissus to shame and I wondered how they did it?

Some pretended to be happy while they were dying inside, and I was amazed at their courage and I wondered how they did it?

Some were filled with spite and hatred, but at least they felt something, didn't they? and I wondered how they did it?

Some were in love and lived in love and I thought whether what I saw, was true...and I wondered how they did it?

Some just had that look of peace and seemed oblivious to the things around them, those were the ones I envied and I wondered how they did it?

The answer to that question, I couldn't find in any face...and I closed my eyes in despair

And my mind screamed at me to run again, without looking back

But I stood there for what seemed like eons...my body numb and cold

And then I felt the softest breeze and it made me open my eyes suddenly...

As I looked around wildly, searching for where it had come from in this cold closed room,

The room suddenly went silent and silence so loud I'd never heard...

I could feel the sweat on the palms of my hands, the wild beating of my heart in anticipation of what was to come...

And then I felt like I saw something familiar,

A face with writings on it, not unlike mine...

With the saddest pair of eyes I'd ever seen...

From across the room, those eyes spoke to me and I could understand what they said...

And mine talked back effortlessly and for the first time I felt that someone had heard me...

And then the stranger, who I somehow knew, smiled...a smile like that, I'd never seen 

I felt everything at once then...relief, pain, joy, understanding, trust... 

I wasn't alone and I felt something grow inside my heart

And I said to myself, "Is this what they call hope?" 

If those sad eyes had survived, maybe I could too...it was worth a try

I felt life being pumped back into my heart, into my whole being

And the sounds of the room were now starting to come back to me...

A mixture of  happy and sad and real  faces, I could see again   

But now the room didn't seem like the one it was before...it had all of it's doors open

The sunlight seemed to pour in...

The crowd didn't seem intimidating any more...

I could feel courage grow inside me as I took my first step to cross the room

I reached the end, where he still stood...and I stared at him still wondering how he'd known

But he just looked right into my eyes again and gave another of those startling smiles...

And I didn't need the answers anymore...

And for the first time in ages, I felt myself smiling back.

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Okay, so if anyone is wondering why I wrote this, I'm sorry because I really don't know myself. Just feeling kind of angsty...I was thinking about the past, when I was about 13 to 14 and how I used to feel and what a really strange time it was for me. How dark everything used seem...how out of place I always felt...and how lonely I always used to be especially when surrounded by hundreds of people and then  how I finally got out of that mode. So these thoughts were just going around and around in my head until, I guess, they sort of decided to come out like this. Hope you liked it :) and I think some might even relate to it ;)  

I've been dying to write but exams came in the way...just one more to go then I'll be a free bird! (*jumps*)

I'll be back soon...and yeah,If anyone's worried, stop, stop, stop 'cause I'm all smiles now :):):)